Fluffy, my fat cat wasn't feeling well last few days. She vomitted few times and she didn't take her meals as often as she usually does. I think it was the thick dirt and dust from the constructions that took place around my house. Like, seriously. I just washed my car and I left it parked outside the house for like an hour and the dust that covered my car was already 1cm thick! They are building houses in front of mine, and next to my house, there is a highway construction. Huh! Imagine that!

So, poor Fluffy.. Having such thick fur makes her a living duster. Haha! I guess that's the reason why she was sick.

So, when we went back to the hostel, I finally bath her. Walauweh! She was super fat! She was so cute but noisy throughout the bath time. She just sat at one corner while I bathed her. Well of course she culd not stop meowing.. Her tummy looks and feels like jello when I touched it. But, she didn't let me dry her with towel. And she was so afraid of th sound of the hair drier that she ran and tumbled over everything. In the end, I had to let her dry her hair herself. She only let me use the towel to dry her after she had tried drying her wet, thick fur for almost an hour.

After the bathin session, she spent her time sleeping like 20 hours a day.
Aku kebosanan duduk kat rumah.
Tiba2 rasa macam nak mandikan kucing gemukku yang kontot dan berbulu tebal serupa kambing biri2 tu.
Tapi, macam xsanggup nak kene cakar dengan dia yang garang.
hair drier pun takda kat rumah ni.





P/s- Kucing ni bukan bunting ye. Dia memang gumuk macam pregnant.
Wuaa!!! Goodbye long hair... I think I've never have above-shoulder lenght hair for about 12 years now.

This is it...

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Wuaaaa! Menyesal aku potong pendek! Aku mintak Victoria Beckham Bob Cut. Tapi, Amoi tu tak reti rupenya. Urg! Sbar jeler.. Terasa macam budak2 pula rambut maam ni.Terasa mkinbuat macam doralin aku rasa muka aku. Macam tempurung kelapapun ada. Tai, syok gak da ama tak raa rambut pendek ni. Tak yah susah2 nk syampu, nak sikat, nak keingkan rambut lama2.
Still waiting for our allowance yang tertunggak around RM300 ++

Were told that we would get our posting around mid December. And just being informed that news might come out around February. *eyes rolling*

Need to confirm my graduation in Auckland by March 2011.

And how am I supposed to do that if I am still not posted to school? How am I going to discuss this matter with my Principle by then?
Crossing my fingers and praying hard that all being planned turns out well.
Dah survey dah...
Fuhhh! Tiba-tiba bila dah abes buat a few options and backup plans, macam kene sentap jatuh dari katil pulak.
Bila total up and compare all the prices for all the options, rasa tak macam nak terjojol la pula kan biji mata gua ni.
Pergh! Biar betul! Jangan main-main...
Aku ni masih lagi bermimpi ni. Kaki dah pacak kat Malaysia, tapi kedinginan Auckland macam sangat real.

Aku bukan nak travel from NZ but from Malaysia. Which means, there wud a difference in the currency.
The figure was like.. "Woooowww!" Heh!
Sekarang nak travel pusing NZ dah tak macam dulu-dulu time belajar and kerje part time kat sana.
Currency was still in NZD now, is in MYR.
Wake up, babe!
Be real, wud you?!

Tiba-tiba je rasa macam tak realistik pulak angan-angan nak attend graduation kat Auckland.
But, I want to attend my graduation coz it might be my 1 and only graduation ever.
Please, please, please, Allah.. please grant this one wish of mine... (and many more, hopefully -_-")

p/s-this ain't just about me goin there alone. It involves my entire famil of 6. Gosh! Imagine that!
Fening lah fening....
Aku sangat2 lah berharap dapat balik Auckland or graduation next Autumn.

Ya Allah, tolonglah...

Sekarang, aku tengah survey prices for flight tickets and stuff.
Ou My God! Boleh tak?! Ada lagi ke manusia yang tak reti-reti nak pilih lorong yang betul kat plaza tol?

Okay, like I cant really remember when exactly Malaysia started its "Smart tag" and "Touch n Go" at our highway tols. But, what is for sure, it has been implemented like ages ago. So many improvements have been done to the system up till now.

Apa yang peliknya,ada lagi ke manusia yang tak tahu apa tu TnG? Touch n Go?
Ada pulak tu, drive laju menggila macam lah dia bawak tank boleh lenyek semua kereta depan dia, macamlah bawak kapal terbang boleh terbang atas kereta2 lain depan dia. Dah tahu nak masuk plaza tol, dah tak reti2 nak slow down, follow d speed limit, dude!
Dah laju2 tu, yang dia fikir dia je nak cepat, mata dah tak reti nak bukak luas2 tengok d correct lane nak terjah. Dalam otak fikir, "ok, which lane is d fastest, which lane has d shortest line of cars?" Dah lupa dah skil membaca agaknya. Sampai tak nampak signs TnG and Smart tag yang terang lagi bersuluh.

Kalau nak kata awal2 dulu masa baru di perkenalkan tu, understandable lah. But now, kalau tak reti2 tu payah lah kan.

Another possible reason for such incidents is that some TnG card holders forgot to reload their cards. Thus, once they reached the tol booth, they got stuck there. Hmm.. susah gak mcm ni. Ada yang tau kad tak berisi tapi, saja nak mencuba nasib, ada yang xbawak back up cash, ada yang terlepas booth "Tambah Nilai" so, try n error je.

There was this one incident, mamat ni main suka-suki kepala lutut dia je potong Q kereta depan aku. Muka da bajet abesla wa cakap sama lu! Skali sampai depan, punyalah lama kami tunggu, kereta mamat ni tak blah2. Bengang betul! Ingat dia je ke nak cepat. Rationale org buat TnG sebab nak cepat. Tapi, mamat kurang ajar ni, yang ingat masa dia je berharga, terpinga2 keluar dari kereta, lambai2 tangan kat orang PLUS tunjuk kat machine TnG tu. Lepas tu dia pergi TOUCH machine tu guna TANGAN dia. Dia punyalah try berkali2. Aku memang rasa nak hempuk je kepala hotak dia dengan tong TnG tu. Menyusahkan orang!

Tadi, highway Utara-Selatan from Yong Peng to JB giler jam. Tak tahu lah kenapa. stress betul. Dah berjalan jauh, penat pula, plus, sepanjang hari panas yang melampau, masuk highway dari jalan dalam, kononnya berharap dapat drive laju and lagi smooth dr drive kat dalam, rupanya hampa. Stress, aku stress. Dengan kereta2 menggila potong Q cni sana, 2 lanes became 3. I can feel that everyone out there was as stress as me. Dengan Ibu yang bermacam ragam kat sebelah. Sampai je Tol Skudai, ade 3 lorong TnG. Semua pun baris nye lebih kurang sama je. Malangnya, lane aku jugak nak buat hal. TnG 1 dan 3 laju je gerak. Lane aku macam ada bongkah ais kat depan palang. Tak gerak langsung. Bengang aku bengang. Ibu dah bising suruh hon kuat2. Aku ni jenis tak gemar hon meng-hon ni. So, tak pelah, sedap kan hati sendiri, bagi lah chance kat orang depan. Tnggu punya tunggu tak gerak2.Aku ape lagi, berapi!Aku tekan hon sekuat hati aku, diikuti orang belakang n kereta2 lain kat depan tu. Aku terus mencilok ke kiri, lane 1. Sempatlah memaki hamun, sumpah seranah segala. Tengok2, kereta Singapore! Damn! Menyusahkan orang! Geramnyaaaaaa! Aku dahlah tengah kejar waktu Maghrib... Gembira ria setan2 keliling aku tengok aku yg tak solat lagi dilanda amarah.

Maybe it would not be fair for me to say that  some peope are just ignorant about the existence of TnG and Smart Tag. Because there might be people who seldom use highways to travel or maybe they dont travel much. But, even if that so, can't they read the signs on every tol booth? There are booths for cash, TnG, Smart Tag, etc. If they find the other signs are greek to them, why cant they just stick to the ordinary-cash lanes?

Or maybe, PLUS might have to improvise their sign boards. Maybe they shud be more specific with the sign boards. Like, instead of writing "Touch n Go", they might need to write "Touch n Go CARD Holders".
So, orang2 yang tak tahu tu, mungkin kene guna akal berfikir lebih sikit yang: 1)Touch n Go, tak sure ape tu. Myb jgn masuk; 2) Touch n Go CARD? Oooo, mungkin kene touch using that specific card, bukan touch using bare hands, palms or fingers; 3) CARD Holders? Ooo.. untuk orang yang ade kad tu je kot. Bukannya beli kad on the spot.


Okay, aku tengah emo kerana jam ada penat erjlan jauh.
Salah Satu Perbezaan Malaysia dan New Zealand yang boleh diambil iktibar dan digunapakai di tempat kita untuk furthur improvement bersama:

-Tourists Information Centre/Counter/Booth

Aku sebagai warga Malaysia yang tak arif tentang semua negeri dan pelusuk daerah tanah air ku tercinta ni, rasa macam terkapai2 di negeri orang. Itu aku yang berkongsi bahasa ibunda dengan warga Kuantan ni. Bayangkan kalau anda adalah tourists yang tak tahu langsung bahasa Malaysia.... mcm mana lah agaknya.

Bila dah tak tahu arah, tak tahu mana nak tuju sebab tak tahu apa tarikan sesuatu tempat tu, siapa kita nak tanya ye? Kalau dah tanya orang sekitar tapi, masih tak dapat jawapan yang tepat atau memberangsangkan, macam mana? Itupun, dah kira nasib baik kalau boleh berkomunikasi dengan masyarakat setempat. Macam mana pula dengan pelancong asing?

Hmm... kalau tak jumpa Information Centre atau tak jumpa maklumat dicari dari Internet, pergilah ke travel agency mana2. Book lah package ape2 or activities apa2. Tapi, sedar tak, saya ni bukan lah orang berada. Bukan semua pelancong atau orang asing tu kaya raya. Ada yang sangat sengkek dan travel semata2 untuk explore tempat baru, hobi, mencari ketenangan atau untuk kepuasan diri sendiri. Kalau pergi cari travel agents, nak kene pakai extra few bucks.

Lagipun, kalau tanya sayalah, saya pasti akan tanya, which travel agents is the best or better? Sebab mereka, macam business people lain juga, itu adalah mata pencarian mereka. Haruslah mereka akan cari jalan untuk dapatkan duit dari customers. Kalau saya ni tourist, dah pening2 sesat ke, tak de hala tuju ke, ada ke patut nak suruh saya fikir, memerah otak, menyakitkan kepala nak pilih travel agency mana nak dituju. Saya akan terfikir, takde ke tempat yang saya rasa secure, selamat, dan welfare saya terjaga berjalan2 di negara orang? Tempat yang saya tahu berada di bawah kerajaan sesebuah negara tersebut? Di bawah Kementerian Pelancongan negara tu mungkin?

Mungkin sebenarnya Malaysia ni memang ada banyak Information Centre cuma saya je yang tak tahu, tapi, saya terfikir, kalau lah saya ni pelancong asing, macam mana saya boleh tak tahu kewujudan Information Centre tu? Mungkin ke tempat tu tidak kelihatan? Lokasi kurang sesuai? Atau publicity, atau mungkin sign boards yang kurang jelas?

Masa saya buat road tour pusing NZ dulu, banyak kali jugak sesat, rasa macam dah sesat, tak tahu dah samapai mana, apa tarikan di sesuatu tempat yang saya tiba tu... Tapi, setiap kali terpandang logo i-Site yang besar terpampang, saya akan berasa lega dan bersyukur. Saya rasa lebih selamat dan yakin sebab saya tahu, saya boleh tanya dan mintak apa saja bantuan dari orang2 di i-Site tu. Saya tahu saya boleh percaya mereka sebab mereka bekerja di bawah Jabatan Pelancongan mereka. Saya tahu, mereka ada semua kemudahan komunikasi dan pamphlets dan maklumat tentang accommodations, transportations, etc dari yang plaing murah dan cikai ke yang bertaraf 5 bintang. Websites i-Sites pun sangat lah membantu sebab semua yang saya mention tadi ade dalam websites mereka. Search je i-Sites ikut daerah yang dicari, mesti dapat pe yang dicari (yang related to tourism lah kan).

Tak semua tourists tu kaya. Ada yang nak cari tpt tinggal murah sekadar untuk berteduh di malam hari. Kalau di Malaysia, susah nak jumpa maklumat tentang accommodation murah di internet. Sebab mereka tak di ada publisiti meluas. kalau ada pun, maklumat tak lengkap.

Selepas beberapa kali terlepas simpang di Pahang sebab ada banyak sangat Pantai dan Resorts, barulah saya terpandang Pahang Tourism House yang sangat cantik. Saya mati2 ingat rumah tu chalet. Padahal dah berkali-kali lalu tepi rumah tu. Kenapa? Sign Board sangat kecik, dan tempat tu tutup.

p/s-Niat di hati bukanlah mahu merendah2 atau memburuk kan negara sendiri. Tidak sama sekali. Cuma, dari experience ni, saya terlintas, benda2 yang tak rugi kalau kite adapt dari negara orang di negara  sendiri. Demi untuk kebaikan kite bersama. Sekadar berkongsi pengalaman yang ditimba yang mungkin akan membawa kebaikan jika dikongsi dengan semua. Tak salah rasanya melihat dunia dari luar dan dalam rumah kaca. Kita berkongsi sesama kita.
Dua pencapaian yang paling dibanggakan tahun ni: Explore dan jalan2 di Ipoh, Perak dan Kuantan, Pahang.

Aku bukanlah tak pernah sampai langsung 2 negeri ni. Tapi, aku pergi Perak dulu pun masa interview UTP and pergi Pahang only when aku pergi Genting or Cameron (which was once in a blue moon).

This year, aku akhirnya dapat jalan2 di 2 bandar besar kedua2 negeri tu. Happy nyee!

Aku suka pengalaman and explore tempat baru. It's refreshing and it gives me new perspectives on things.


Malam ni, malam kedua aku di Kuantan. Esok nak balik dah.

Tadi, pergi jalan2, main air, main layang-layang di Teluk Chempedak dekat2 Bandar Kuantan ni. Memang cantik. Tak rugi langsung pergi situ. Malah rasa sangat rugi sebab tak dapat duduk menikmati kecantikan tempat tu lama2.

Lama juge kat situ. Sampai matahari tegak atas kepala barulah beredar. Went to Teluk Mak Nek, Terengganu. KOnonnya Ibu nak ajak makan sotong besar, fresh. Meredah heavy rain masa on the way.
Sampai2 je, they told us they didnt have squids today. Deym! Sedey giler.. But then, the satar was so good. The first satar that I ate before was like giler tak sedap that gave me a bad impression on satar. But, the one i tasted today was super delicious. I loike! And the fish were fresh and fat like me! Heh!

Okay, abes pasal makan. Next destination was Pantai Cherating, Pahang. Huhu.. Superb, okay! Memang terbaik! Aku rasa nak guling2 je kat pantai tu. Jalan2, main2 air, survey chalets for future holidays, then back to Kuantan.

Esok, kalau aku bercuti sorang, memang akan ku kejar sunrise. Tapi, memandangkan ade Ibu and Izzah, si budak kecik tu, maybe akan head back to Teluk Chempedak around 7.30. Ambil udara pagi, main layang-layang, main air, cari jejaka kacak untuk cuci mataku... hehe. Noon, hantar Mar balik UIA before balik Johor.
My room is equivalent to a mini library.
Books here and there.
Out of 4 walls, I have books in front of 3. And the fourth is where my bed and closet lie.
I could say about 80% of the books are or were mine. I collected them since I was a kid coz I just love books. Either they are left untouched on the shelves or they are being passed down to my sis and bro. Anyway, those that were being passed down were still left there on the shelves.
Once a while, I do feel like throwing them away coz they are taking a lot of space in my room. But, I do love books and I don’t think I would ever be happy to throw them or give them away.
It’s about time to leave my nest.

Am I ready?
I highly doubt that.
Too comfortable living under my parents’ wings.
Now its time for me to hit the real world.
It’s cruel out there, they said.
I’m worried of so many things.
I can foresee myself missing the feeling of security.
As for now, my biggest worry is as to where am I going to be posted.
Honestly, I am not sure where exactly I want.
Therefore, I let Him decides what’s best for me.
Semalam Ibu kata, Ibu doakan Atie dapat jodoh lepas setahun kerja.
Second Class Lower.




Deym!
Unpacking my boxes of stuff, of books, from the hostel and from my student’s life, I brought out a whole bunch of teaching materials that I used to use for my teaching in Taman Yarl.

I miss my kids. Yup, that’s the bottom line.
I miss New Zealand. Everyday, the feeling grows stronger. Make the desires to go back to Auckland even stronger. Oh, Allah, please let me graduates in Uni of Auckland with my family.
From my bed, I could see a big map of New Zealand and a Haka scroll. I hate to remember of those good times there. Coz they are just making me sad and down.

Please give me a rich, good looking, kind hearted, loyal and faithful, supportive, understanding, gentleman, well-educated, and a soleh husband that could bring me to New Zealand for holidays. Ameen.

p/s-Giler melampau tak nak impian aku? Haruslah tak.
The M-word. Guess what that is. M_ _ _ _ _ _ _
Everyone seems to have found their life companion except me (and several others-of course not everyone, as in everyone..duh~)
One by one of my friends either got engaged or got married within these past few months. Not to mention those who already have babies and those who are soon to be parents.
As for me, I guess I now find the reasons why God still hasn't give me my other half...


  • Seriously, I myself agree that I'm far from ready. 
  • Hey, dude! I'm like 22 this year, man! Still young to think of family matters, husband, kids, housework, etc.
  • Marriage requires serious and full commitment which I am so very afraid of. Like seriously, yo!
  • I am still unemployed. Undies pun mak bapak gue tanggung. Plus, the list of my wish list seems to be a never ending one. If I were to get married soon, I am gonna have to save my future salary for my wedding. Unless, of course i got super duper lucky by marrying a super rich man that could grant all my wishes in the wish list.
  • All the guys I met, not one has met at least one of my top, utmost criteria of my future husband.
  • And few other reasons...
Despite of my aforementioned realisation of my current faith, I still complain about the inexistent of my Mr. Right Guy. Maybe, it's true what Erikson stated in his theory of Psychosocial Development that the age range between 18-35 is the stage when a person faces the stage of Intimacy vs. Isolation. And as an individual who falls under this age category, I'm bound to behave as such. And one thing that annoys me to the ultimate at this stage is when people keep on asking that very same question... You know, the one about marriage and companionship. Even more irritating when some people just could not stop matchmaking me randomly. Some people were serious about the matchmake, but others were just popping out the idea out of randomness which portrayed the lack of sensitivity in their part. Not that I am being ungrateful. Just maybe,they should be more serious about it coz this aint some game. 

P/s- Congrats to my dear friends, comrades, acquaintances, etc who just got married recently (I dont dare to mention names here in case I miss any which there is a high possibility that I will- too many of you lah)

First enrolled in this twinning course- July 05 in IPG KBA which formerly known as IPBA.
Struggling 1 and a half year of foundation in IPBA with so many ups and downs.
Then, slowly I crawled up the stairs to my first year of bachelor of education in IPBA. It wasn't easy. Never was.
Putting all the hardships in friendships, studies, not-so-conducive learning environment, and other aspects into the picture, I somehow could not believe the fact that I managed to enter 1st year.
Then, it's the time to fly off to NZ. Gosh! It was a big deal to everyone involved. Sure is. All the procedures in applying for visa, passport, medical documentations, etc was very taxing and troublesome.
The next thing I knew, I had passed all the procedures and there I was stepping my foot right outside of Auckland Airport. I remembered the chill breeze, the clear, blue sky, the ever blowing wind, and the calmness of the city which I miss so much now.
Had my chances to try out so many new things, wild things abroad. Been travelling around NZ, been to Brunei, and Jakarta.
Dealt with different personalities, conducted events that I might never got anymore chance to organise in future.
Experiences I faced and lessons I learnt during my 1st year there compared to those during my 2nd year there were extremely unique and different. They were incomparable.
Again, it's time to leave Autearoa. I hate to say that I was leaving for good coz I always hope that 1 day I would be able to come back to that peaceful land again.
Then, there was my final B.Ed. year in IPG KBA with myriads of changes await for us. As if the differences in  the environment, system and people were not enough to challange us, Cohort 4.
Our patient was being tested every now and then, we had to bear with so many weird decisions by the authorities,etc.
But, it was not a big transition to me as I had been expecting the worst to come. I had been prepared by seniors who had been warning me of what to be expected when I go back to IPBA.
So, finally, I have finished my studies.
Spending my time at home, expecting news regarding my posting soon. Hopefully, I'll get to teach a school that will suit me best that provide ample opportunity for me to excel in my career.

~The End of This Chapter of My Journey~
banyaknye benda tak terupdate..
Sume kerana ketiadaan internet.
Kalau dulu masa kat oklen, internet whoooo...oo.oo..sh lembab, internet kat cni bukan setakat lembab malah, memeningkan pale otak aku lak sekarang ni.
Of course, I cannot put the blame merely on the broadband, but also my problematic laptop.
Currently, aku sedang bercuti di rumah. Dengan tak berapa senang hatinya aku guna broadband mak aku. In which, aku kene tahan dengar bebelan dia yang akan bising setiap beberapa minit, sebab tak bagi aku guna banyak sangat band-width.

Oleh itu, aktiviti internet aku agak terbatas. Kadang-kadang aku taramkan aje upload banyak2 gambar.
Tapi itupun kalau aku bernasib baik internet nya tak lembab macam ciput babi.
I kind of starting a new diet now. Not a strict one though. Really, knowing myself, I don’t think I am ready for a drastic change in my diet. I don’t wanna kill my spirit.
Let it be a slow and continuous change. Live and eat healthily.

It’s hard though. Staying at home where you have a mum who would cook and loves to see her kids eat em all.

It’s hard to resist the temptation of eating delicious unhealthy stuff when they are all right under your nose.

This is me I am talking about. I eat when I am sad, when I am angry, when I am happy, and even when I am bored. The last worries me the most. It’s so boring staying at home doing almost nothing at some points of the day. Not that I’m complaining of my lengthy holidays and not that there is exactly nothing to do. What I mean was, there is nothing extremely interesting to do at home other than, house chores, ever repeating movies on Astro, games on laptop, playing guitar. The boredom makes me thinks of food!

As I am writing this, I am damn hungry.